St. George’s Cross, courtesy of @ianmcalister and England.

St. George’s Cross, courtesy of @ianmcalister and England.

kid-idiosyncratic

Watching from the back seats of moving vehicles as a child, I used to swear the moon was following behind to keep me company. Had you asked me then what I wanted to be when I grew up, I would not have hesitated to yell “A flower!” The answer was always so simple before discovering the limitations of reality. My life is a love letter of sorts to that innocence and to the amalgam of memories seemingly lost in time. When that child begins to fade and you watch the world slowly stop loving you, there’s a silent implosion within that you never quite recover from.    

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More memories I dug up for my mother, as seen through her own mothers eyes. Shot on 8mm in Queens NY throughout the 70s.

To my mum, Laura, and also to my aunts Ada, Carmen, and Clara. Using 8mm footage shot by your own mother, I made this for you.

Last Remaining Footage of a Ghost.

Filmed and edited by Ash Miller, music (“goodnight jade”) by Tom Jenkinson aka Squarepusher.

"…a feeling you can only understand once it’s gone.. detected in passing, which makes it beautiful and the subject more brilliant than they realize…"

Múm - The Ghosts You Draw On My Back

The wind plays flute
Through the cellar door
And on my windowsill
Plays a sad old song
I hope tonight
You will touch my hair
And draw ghosts on my back

Walk the shore
Too impassable
Shout at screaming waves
Shout at silent rocks 
I think tonight 
I’ll dream of salty tongues 
So tears drip down my legs 

The wind plays song 
Through the cellar door 
And on my windowsill 
Plays a sad old song 
I hope tonight 
You will touch my hair 
And draw ghosts on my back

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An earlier version, put together using my grandmother’s 8mm footage. 

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This remains one of my all-time favorite short films since its release.

"Last night, as I slumbered, I had a strange dream…"

Scrub-a-dub-dub, a drawing party in my tub.

Scrub-a-dub-dub, a drawing party in my tub.

Boy sleeps where boy wants 

Boy sleeps where boy wants 

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Myers-Briggs Result

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People with the INTP personality type are global thinkers. They see everything as one giant Entity that is connected, and seek knowledge about that Entity. They constantly seek the Truth, and have ultimate respect for the Truth.

It is not easy for the INTP to reach a conclusion about the Truth. Their auxiliary function of Extraverted Intuition allows them to absorb the many complexities in our world, and they are driven to consider each of these complexities before reaching a conclusion. Once they have reached a conclusion, or discovered a Truth, they are *very* particular about the way that Truth is expressed and understood.

They want to know that the principles of their understanding have been understood correctly, and demand absolute precision and correctness from others when describing these principles. They also apply these standards to themselves when communicating their knowledge. If they take the time to develop their communication so that it meets their own approval, they can be extremely good educational writers.


Nearly all INTPs will recognize the following characteristics in themselves. They should embrace and nourish these strengths:

  • They have a natural ability to focus and get “into the zone” when working on a problem. They can absorb their minds completely with an issue, and work it through with amazing speed and accuracy. This ability makes them outstanding trouble-shooters. Since their logical abilities are dependent on their experiences, their abilities will increase with time. INTPs with experience are often seen as the “gurus” of their professions.
  • Their respect for precision in communication lends them the ability to accurately convey their ideas and discoveries in full.
  • They are usually quite intelligent and can grasp difficult concepts.
  • They are often jovial and good-natured, with a good sense of humor.
  • They are not overly demanding in personal relationships, and have simple daily needs. They are often easy and enjoyable to live with.
     

Potential Problem Areas

Most of the weaker characteristics that are found in INTPs are due to their dominant function of Introverted Thinking overtaking the personality to the point that all of the other functions exist merely to serve the purposes of Introverted Thinking. In such cases, an INTPmay show some or all of the following weaknesses in varying degrees:

  • The INTP gets “stuck in a rut” and only does those things that are known and comfortable to the INTP.
  • The INTP resists and rejects anything that doesn’t support their own experiential understanding of the world. If they perceive that something is not logical, they reject it as unimportant.
  • They reject people who think or live differently than themselves.
  • They may be extremely caustic and insulting to others.
  • They may become isolated from society.
  • They may become overly paranoid about social organizations and institutions trying to control them.
  • They may unknowingly or uncaringly hurt people’s feelings.
  • They may be completely unaware of how to express their inner world to others in a meaningful way.
  • They may be completely unaware of the type of communication that is often desireable and (to some degree) expected in an intimate relationship. If they are aware of the kinds of things that are appropriate to say and do to foster emotional bonding, they may be unable to appreciate the value of such actions. They may feel too vulnerable to express themselves in this fashion, and so reject the entire idea.
  • If pushed beyond their comfort level to form commitments or emotional bonds, they may reject a relationship entirely.
  • Under stress, they may show intense emotions that seem disproportionate to the situation.
  • They may not recognize basic social principles, such as appropriate dress and general behavior.

The problem rears its ugly head when the goal of the INTP becomes to achieve their personal satisfaction at all costs. The dominant function of the INTP is Introverted Thinking. They are less concerned with understanding something for the sake of understanding than they are with feeding a piece of data into their Thinking function. Information that is not logical is dismissed as unimportant.

If an INTP's psyche is serving the purposes of Introverted Thinking above all else, then logical conclusions become more important than possibilities. In such cases, the INTP picks and chooses information from Extraverted Intuition that is interesting to them from the perspective of reaching logical conclusions. This keeps the INTP focused on reaching logical conclusions, but it prevents them from taking in any information that doesn’t work well with their logical functioning.
This includes things like love, emotions, social expectations, etc. These things are very important to many people in the world, and cannot be discarded from consideration if one hopes to really understand other people and the society that we live in.


When the INTP dismisses the importance of data that can’t be handled by their Thinking function, they are dismissing the importance of ideas that are central to half of the personality types’ way of life (approximately half of the human population uses Feeling primarily for decision making). An INTP who wants to understand people and wants to recognize value in both logical and nonlogical ideas will strive to take in as much information as possible about the world for the purposes of improving their understanding,


The INTP who suffers from diminished use of Extraverted Intuition is likely to be very cutting and derisive towards people who express disagreement with the INTP.
Without a sufficiently diverse perception of the Extraverted world, the INTP is unlikely to understand the principles of human interaction, and is unlikely to recognize the tremendous value of getting along with others and having good relationships.


The INTP's inferior (fourth) function is Extraverted Feeling. This means that the INTP is not naturally in tune with how other people are feeling, or with social expectations. In fact, theINTP is likely to reject the importance of social rituals, rules, and expectations. This is a natural weak point for the INTP, which no doubt causes strife to the INTP and their love partner. 


Living Happily in our World as an INTP

The problems that INTPs have with regards to fitting into our world are not usually related to platonic friendships. Usually, the INTP has trouble finding and maintaining a love relationship. The INTP usually has relatively simple needs and expectations from their mates, and they’re surprised and confused to find that their mates have more complex demands. They don’t understand their mate’s needs, and may feel inadequate to meeting them. They get very uncomfortable with a situation as they perceive that they are expected to do something that it unknown to them.

They back away from the relationship. They generally mask their fear and discomfort by reducing the importance of the relationship to themselves and others, or by putting the failure off onto the ridiculous expectations of their ex-mate. Outside of a relationship, they feel more unloved and unappreciated, but are afraid to commit to a relationship because they fear rejection and hurt. Most INTPs experience relationship difficulties at some point in their lives. 


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